But he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a juniper tree; and he requested for himself that he might die, and said, “It is enough; now, O LORD, take my life, for I am not better than my fathers.” (1 Kings 19:4)
In 1 Kings 19 you find the prophet Elijah running into the wilderness, fleeing for his life from Jezebel. Once there he sits under a juniper tree and desires to die because he feels he is just not good enough.
So many look at Elijah as being the greatest prophet ever, it is hard to believe that even for a moment he would feel like he was not good enough to continue serving God. But Elijah saw that Jezebel would continue to spew her poison to the people of God and he felt his work was fruitless. He felt he was failing.
Elijah may have felt he was not as good as those before him, but something maybe Elijah didn’t see is that each of those before him had their limits, each one had a point where they felt they were just not good enough, and God showered His loving compassion on each one.
What God taught Elijah next is that we need to see the Lord in His gentleness. Not in the big events, but in the quiet calmness. (1 Kings 19:9-13)
We must, especially in our lowest times, keep an open heart to recognize the Lord in His gentleness. We must be willing to allow God to have compassion on us and minister to us in His very special way.
We need to have trust in Him.